some writing competition i wont win... but i want to try

so this writing contest is first within out school and then the best 2 get sent to another contest... the topic is "Looking for the Real Me" so... here is what i have:


Sept 2010
A plan

The words
A frown
The tears
A thought
The decisions
An Answer
The wrong one
(found on a to go cup in the trash, Upper field)
Oct. 2010

I was the girl
Who wouldn’t let go
I lived in my house
I looked like my photos

Now I am that girl
Who you think has it all together.
The one who always had the plan
But, the truth is, I am not perfect.

I have flaws.
I can’t read your mind.
Sometimes,
However impossible it seems,
I make mistakes.

I know,
My expectations are high
And not everyone out there is like me.
Believe me.

Now I am that girl
The one who smiles,
Hiding everything inside
Because it hurts to talk.

Because after all, I am not perfect.
So don’t pretend
I’m not broken,
I can see it
In your eyes.

Now I am that girl,
I am that girl who changed
Because this friendship was torn
And never mended


Now they ask me,
“What happened to you,
The two best friends that were
Crazy about each other”

Now I have to tell them,
“I guess I’m just not
That girl
Anymore,”

I stand outside your door,
You won’t even take me in,
So I wonder if you even remember
What it was like.

Because I remember,
I remember that one conversation,
“I love forests,”
“Why? You can get lost in them,”
“You can get lost in your own mind,”
“I can get lost in your eyes,”

What happened to that boy?
He was so perfect,
And that girl,
Who is that girl now?


You strung me along,
Not thinking,
Leaving me to believe,
Even though it is all in my head

Why is it now,
When I have finally moved on,
That you tell me
I could have had so much better?

Now,
You have changed me.
I don’t wear my heart on my sleeve,
I don’t expect anything.

People change.
But, right now,
Right this second,
I can confidently say
I am the girl
Who will carry on
Who will put a smile on her face,
Even if it is not me
Simply because,
They said,
“smile”

(found on the inside cover of Romeo and Juliette, the memory tree)
Nov 2010
Slipping away feels easy
Until you start to get the blame
From people who you call friends
But are not sure why.
Why don’t they understand?
I need you most now.

I may be pulling away
But I just need to see
If I fall down the rabbit hole
Someone
Anyone will follow.

(found on the bottom of Mimi’s Shoe, train tracks)

Dec 2010

I can feel it in my bones.
Not like a blizzard,
Or arctic winds,
Just the settle of regret in my mind
(found written in permanent marker on chair number 3, Snomass Mountain)

Jan 2011
*insert ridiculously awesome poem here*


so obviously im not done.... but feedback??!! and not that anyone wants to put this on their blog.. but if you do, i worked really hard so if you could give me credit that would be awesome.. thanks

Love & Writing Randomness,

Emiko