hello outer-gallactic-terrestrials. i will start with heat, because it is indeed easiest to explain. randomly today right after school it got hot, like summer hot. this was kinda nice. moving on to magical moments, i spent the afternoon hanging out with none other than the steffen-ator. i think we were on the trampoline for 3 hours.. more or less and we just talked. it was enchanting to a whole new level. its kinda hard to imagine life without him. its almost like i think i would be a totally different person if i had never met him. its sad to think one day i wont see him on a daily basis... for that matter i might not even see him on an annual basis. but... they were magical moments filled with nothingness that made them so special and memorable. its so easy to get caught up in the moment with him that i barely realize any time goes by. and i was thinking of the amount of should-be-awkward moments there are but they arent at all awkward. its almost... natural. the next and seemingly final part of my day is not so happy. for a problem that started last night at the dinner table with my brother has proceeded to today. after a series of harsh words ( i thought i stayed relatively quiet but apparently not) he ran upstairs to his room not to be seen until morning. today, he left a not on my bed pretty much saying i tell him my grades are better than his just to get at him. (as you can see i found this to be a personal attack on me because there is a part in the letter that directly refers to me by using my name) and you know what? maybe i do use it to get at him a bit because with him, i can never win. im not stronger than he is so he can over-power me by not hurting me badly but just enough to upset me, he can argue with me about anything, he can play music as loud as he wants while i work, but suddenly i am not allowed to play music while he is working, etc. and in situations where i cant win, i look for alternatives, doesnt everyone. no one likes to fail repeatedly.if anyone who reads this enjoys failing, maybe i am just seeing life through a really extreamly warped way, but i am thinking im not too far off the truth. stay golden ponyboy,
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emiglo...
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hi.... (awkward intro= done) i am often times referred to as a weasel.... and according to wikipedia... weasels are solitary creatures with not many friends, so if you would like to prove wikipedia wrong or make me at least think i have friends....comment below
yep... i think thats pretty much it!