another fairytale ends...

sadly, today another fairytale came to an end. It mostly started yesterday when I was on facebook editing my friends group, which is a really handy tool, when I realized I only had one person in my guy best friend group. Some of you might think that its trivial and nothing to get worked up about but it seemed so much more full with two other people in it. It was a depressing moment for me. It forced me to reflect on some of the more painful moments of this school year. This miniscule event surfaced hundreds of events that make me want to crawl into bed, recently my only safe haven. I was happy last night to escape to my bed at a reasonable hour but when I woke up it all started again. (insert long and whining story here in which I decided to delete) I guess the moral of the story is, people make promises that they cant keep, especially regarding change within themselves. Exceptionally so at this age, teens just aren’t mature enough to see what they need to change within themselves in order to make a better long term future, versus a better tomorrow. In regard to the picture on the right I find it extremely true. There are times when I just didn’t want to get out of bed in the morning just to avoid meeting the problems at school because, over time they just wore me down. I know of two people that can help me. One can only help me for a little while and the one that could cure me forever sadly wont. The ultimate cure seemed possible for a while but that dream was shattered long ago. Now I just have to learn to get through it myself. It all starts once I get it through my thick skull that I need to make myself happy before I try to make other people happy.