polaroids/ NUMERO DOS

hello dear nobody who doesnt read this blog. i have decided good followers are very hard to come by so i am talking to you. whoever you is be you that perfect follower or just someone who passes through. that makes almost no sense. you should know i am trying and it makes sense in my head. maybe if you care to stick around for a while you can figure out what goes on this space and understand!!!! soo.. polaroids are AWESOME and here are some that i have done as well as some other random bright colored photography i am going to try and brighten my otherwise cloudy day with!!!!!! yay for sarcastic optimism!!

 

 (on second thought make the colorful photos a colorful photo... the other ones werent too great)

(awkward transition) blog 2-my first love

wellllllllll imaginary or not so imaginary person who is reading or not reading this, i found a definition for true love and i really like it. if you havent noticed... its to your right. according to this.... no then. i havent experienced true love. although it is weird because there are things that i have loved this much but all but one of these things just so happen to not be human. all of them are horses. as for the person.... i guess actually persons because there are two, Steffen my neighbor and best friend and Tom Woodman. Stef helped me let loose. i dont have to be a perfect person around him and to not have that pressure is amazing. its a paradise to the war zone that my house, a supposedly secure place, has become. and then Tom. he is the camp director of my favorite place on earth. he has taught me so much about life and the value of please and thank you. the countless amount of quotes that he has said will always rest in my mind. in a less human sense... i love Jimminy Cricket. the first and last pony i ever leased. i like to think of him as my frog prince. the one who made me believe and LOVE horseback riding. then Vanessa. my favorite camp pony. a slow, fat, darling morgan baby. so stubborn yet so cute. so as a whole... i dont think this was what you were looking for.. but first loves all depend on your definition of love. 

unicorns & marshmallows,

E

dear blogosphere, (1- introduce yourself)

 greetings from outer space, this is an alien life form and I am talking to YOU..... actually, not really. sooooooo fellow bloggers THE ULTIMATE GUESSING GAME: you have to guess how i am feeling today! if you guess it correctly... well... we will save that part for later. if YOU guessed sick with the common cold (symptoms: REALLY sore throat, ear hurting, head aching, nose running/stuffing etc.) and as a result i have watched a few too many AWESOME astronomy documentaries on youtube. (you dont have to tell me im a dork.. i already know) but whilst metaphorically "surfing" the net (what a weird expression) i checked on a commenter's, frenzied, blog and she was doing this AWESOME, for lack of a better word, thing. so each day, or in my case blogpost, i have to do the assigned topic... FUN FUN FUN!!!! sooo here is the schedule:

Day 01 – Introduce yourself.
Day 02 – Your first love.
Day 03 – Your parents.
Day 04 – What you ate today.
Day 05 – Your definition of love.
Day 06 – Your day.
Day 07 – Your best friend.
Day 08 – A moment.
Day 09 – Your beliefs.
Day 10 – What you wore today.
Day 11 – Your siblings.
Day 12 – What’s in your wallet.
Day 13 – This week.
Day 14 – What you wore today.
Day 15 – Your dreams.
Day 16 – Your first kiss.
Day 17 – Your favorite memory.
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday.
Day 19 – Something you regret.
Day 20 – This month.
Day 21 – Another moment.
Day 22 – Something that upsets you.
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better.
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry.
Day 25 – A first.
Day 26 – Your fears.
Day 27 – Your favorite place.
Day 28 – Something that you miss.
Day 29 – Your aspirations.
Day 30 – One last moment.

(awkward transition) 1- pssst, im gonna introduce myself here

hi, my name is Emiko. i am a proud social outcast at my school and my group of friends consist of 3 people. one of these people might i add lives on the opposite side of the world. i love horses, my family, my dogs, my imaginary pet whale Pascale, crackly nail polish, fantasy romance, books, and a lot else. i can speak english and french as well as a very limited amount of japanese. i have been an ex-pat from the US for four years. i have had a **** load of social issues this year but currently stuff has toned down. when i grow up i want to be a journalist.. i think, but right now im just a fun loving teenager that would give a lot of stuff (NOT EVERYTHING) to have more fun. this year has been stressful to say the least and i vent a lot on this blog. i am in a cast of about 30 people for our Middle School play of Treasure Island, you might be thinking, WHAT PART WHAT PART??!!, if you werent too bad because im gonna tell you anyway, dont flatter yourself... im an extra. this pisses me off for 2 reasons, 1 because the tryouts were SO biased on who was in the musical last year. THE ONLY REASON I DIDNT TRY OUT LAST YEAR WAS BECAUSE I WAS SICK!!!!! the second reason is i know i could have done so much better at the tryouts if the casting guy had given me a chance. he gave people from last year 5 min. per part they read and i got 30 seconds. i couldnt even get in character!!!!! sometimes i wouldnt even get to say a line!! so... that is my story, in short. if you need more insight you can look under the MOI tab located under the header.... orrr you can stalk my older posts. either way im not really gonna know. see you... i was gonna say soon but not really... i probably wont ever see you.... so see you probably never!!

unicorns & marshmallows,

probably the only person in the world with an imaginary pet whale named pascale.... ME

OH WILD ABYSS THEY CALL BLOGGER

yes, i am currently addressing YOU! feel the love.. probably not, but at least you know that im trying to spread the love. well… trying might be exaggerating because i know none of you so at this point im pretty much talking to myself. but you know what is weird about blogger…. when you make a blog they try a make you not feel like a loner by giving you one follower to start… and then your all like… ONE FOLLOWER ALREADY??!! so you/i click on it because i am a total stalker just to figure out its blogger.. W O W. but anyway….. awkward transition into my day which i am sure you are all so keen to hear about…. IT SUCKED…. what a surprise wild abyss. today i actually am a loner so the one blogger follower  made me feel like… actually, i was going to say better but it didnt make me feel any better. oh i lead such the happy life. HURRAY FOR UNICORNS, MARSHMALLOWS, AND PONIES…. in other words the only decent things on this planet. ok there are others… but i either cant admit them because it would cause me to sink lower down in the social food chain than the guy that wears his pants up to his nose which is saying something…. you know whats funny, i never imagined, when i was six, that my middle school life would be like this and if my high school life is at all similar…. my ideas couldnt be further than reality.i always thought that some fantastic guy would sweep me off my feet and id go to prom with him in a huge ball gown that was cotton candy pink and sparkly. growing up was such a glorious thing when you are little but now i just want to go back. how depressing. well i suppose i kind of over wrote… so if you decided not to quit reading before this… thank you for listening to me being… well…. me.

unicorns & marshmallows,
Moi

 (just another awkward transition...) uhmm just to explain a bit.... i am pretty much starting over... almost like a new blog but im kinda to lazy to make an entire new one.... sooooo yeahhh, BYE

ambivalence + stars

so... if you cant guess from my title, i am feeling ambivalent. so much change is surrounding me that i have changed my blog name twice in the last 24 hours, considered cutting off almost all of my hair, and considered making a new blog. so... whatever followers still read my blog... of which i think there is one... i am going to ask you! i know you are going to tell me 1. DONT CUT YOUR HAIR OFF!!! (oh and did i mention i might stop blogging?? that was an options too) so i guess the final question (its multiple choice so this should be easy)

What should i do??

a. delete this blog
b. start a new blog "The Polaroid Bear"
c. continue with my plan for this blog
d. both a & b
e. turn this blog into "the Polaroid Bear"
f. change this blog into the life of the human companion pony cause thats what i feel like
g. get a tumblr blog

so.... help me decide or not... eventually i am going to decide for myself

and whilst i am procrastinating so much, i am going to tell you why i am at war with myself about stars. i love stars and hate them. they are so damn pretty but every time i look at them and feel depressed because i am never going to be able to reach them. on the contrary when you are in the maze that we call life, its the only thing that guides you through. they are the same everywhere in the world. so theres the post

so its all new

i have to make this quick... but this is the new road, to a new me. one who now refuses to lapse in and out of slight depressive cycles... and attempt to make my blog a little more unique.. starting tomorrow. you will see why tomorrow.. it has to do with me not being able to find my cam. cord.... but yeahh... im exhausted so..


love & sweet dreams with triple ice creams!!!,

emiko